Monthly Archives: November 2012

Thoughts on being Single

So day when I was leaving the library around 6. I thought that it would be a good idea to pick up a thing of coffee cake from Starbucks and take it home for desert. In my mind, I was going home and the man-friend would have dinner on the table. I would say, “O’ honey. look what I bought home.”

I would be shocked to find dinner on the table and the dogs feed. We would watch a movie and have a deep discussion about it after. Then he would kiss me good night and he would go home because he is just, the boyfriend. I would see him tomorrow and he would propose after months of dating.

False, this is not what I came home to.  

I came home and directly took a shower, it is about 50 degrees outside and I need to stay warm. Then I worked on homework and I am still working on homework. I heated up leftover home made soup from last night. Fixed the coffee cake the way I like it.

I have been thinking a lot on what it means to be single. I remember when I was younger telling my mom that I was going to get married at 20. Mostly because the person who babysat, my sisters and I was getting married.

In English class today, we were talking about marriage and what is love? (Cue the song). The short story that we have been reading addressed the relationship of a newly married couple who had been set up on a blind date by their parents and the story starts four months in the couple’s new life together. The tension that was brought on due to the religious icons that they found around their recently purchase home.

This made me think about what it is like to be single. Considering, I have been single for my whole life. Don’t get me wrong, I love being single but would love maybe to go out on a date every once and a while. I want somebody that I can share experiences with and just for fun bringing home coffee cake as a surprise.

The coffee cake in question.

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Posted by on November 13, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Remember, when you were around 5-6 years old (grade school age). There would be that song that everyone sing, “Secrets, Secrets are no fun, share with everyone”. The words escape me for a moment.

Last night, I was watching the movie Doubt. I love the sermon that Father Flynn gives on gossip, here is the quote:

A woman was gossiping with a friend about a man she hardly knew – I know none of you have ever done this – that night she had a dream. A great hand appeared over her and pointed down at her. She was immediately seized with an overwhelming sense of guilt. The next day she went to confession. She got the old parish priest, Father O’Rourke, and she told him the whole thing.

‘Is gossiping a sin?’ she asked the old man. ‘Was that the hand of God Almighty pointing a finger at me? Should I be asking your absolution? Father, tell me, have I done something wrong?’

‘Yes!’ Father O’Rourke answered her. ‘Yes, you ignorant, badly broughtup female! You have borne false witness against your neighbor, you have played fast and loose with his reputation, and you should be heartily ashamed!’

So the woman said she was sorry and asked for forgiveness.

‘Not so fast!’ says O’Rourke. ‘I want you to go home, take a pillow up on your roof, cut it open with a knife, and return here to me!’

So the woman went home, took a pillow off her bed, a knife from the drawer, went up the fire escape to the roof, and stabbed the pillow. Then she went back to the old parish priest as instructed.

‘Did you gut the pillow with the knife?’ he says.

‘Yes, Father.’

‘And what was the result?’

‘Feathers,’ she said.

‘Feathers?’ he repeated.

‘Feathers everywhere, Father!’

‘Now I want you to go back and gather up every last feather that flew out on the wind!’

‘Well,’ she said, ‘it can’t be done. I don’t know where they went. The wind took them all over.’

‘And that,’ said Father O’Rourke, ‘is GOSSIP!’

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Posted by on November 11, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Finishing Things

I feel like day has been the day for things to be finishing up. We are finishing up a novel in English class, I am finishing up study for Anthropology, the election is almost over with, that novel by my bed is almost finished, at some point I am going to finish up making my bed.

Today was also not a good day, not at all. It started after English class, mostly during English class because I was confused on what was going on in the novel. Then the girl next to me is starting to get on my nerves because she told me after class, last Thursday that she was sick of us talking about Feminism and that everyone in my class is not a feminist. Not really sure where that came from. It could have been because I said that being a mother was an honorary position in society. She told me that she really hates The Road and the book that we are reading, After This. That she has quit reading for the class, again not really sure where that came from. I am hoping to find out how she did on her paper. The one that I got an A on.

I have also today have been snacking on food, a didn’t really eat lunch or dinner. Just snack food. I really don’t feel like cooking or going to gym. My day did turn around when I found one of my favorite songs on Pandora:

1,2,3,4- Feist

It made me simile when I was walking back home from the library.

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Posted by on November 6, 2012 in Uncategorized


Practicing Gratitude

As most of you know this weekend was homecoming, I attended two events Bonfire and the Parade. I have been thinking a lot about life and my life in general.

This morning over a breakfast, my friend and I were talking about general what’s going on in our lives. I made the comment that since I was worried about how housing was going to work for the summer and that I was planning to take classes at Private University. That since I know, due to family personal issues, that most likely will not be getting a car next year. That it would make things easier, like when I want to go home. to target, relay meetings, grocery shopping, or that emergency trip to the bike shop. I could go when I want to go or where I want to go without other people, sometimes I hate being dependent on people. I would not have to worry about getting a ride. The flip side to that is that getting a ride places has taught me how to communicate better and build relationships with people around me. It has taught me to practice humility and patience.  On the other hand, I worry about since I am living in a different on-campus apartment that is really off-campus next year about rides to church on Sunday.

I decide that I should be grateful for what I have now. That I should worry about the future but things will work out.

Things that I am grateful for:

1. My parents- who support me no matter and their continued support when I am having rough days. That they pay for my education and for my textbooks because they want what is best for me.

2. My College Friends- who are willing to listen and have meaningful decisions with

3. My roommates- who think that I am crazy half the time because I am obsessed my new phone. I am also able to talk to them about my day and hear about theirs.

4. Being able to study at a wonderful university- as I look at Grad. programs and future plans, I worry that I won’t be able to find a university where I am challenged, pushed, and taught to look at hard issues in many different ways by so many different faculty members.

5. That I have a roof over my head and food in my belly- I was doing some research earlier this afternoon and I should be thankful that I access to clean water, food resources, and a safe place to live.

6. The people who serve our country and the Veterans who have defended our country- they are doing or have done a job that I could never do.

There is so much that I am thankful for, this just a short list.

What are you thankful for? What ways do you practice gratitude? 

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Posted by on November 5, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Homecoming Weekend

For some reason Homecoming was a lot more fun as in 10X more fun last year. Maybe it was the experience of everything being new and not really sure about what was going on half the time. It was also cold which made for coffee drinking weather and bundling up in jackets.

My friend cancelled on me this morning on going to the parade so as I was awkwardly standing outside the bookstore, waiting to watch the parade by myself. I bummed into another friend, I ended up watching the parade with her and her apartment director and their family (super cute kids included).

Here are some of my favorite pictures from the parade and from last night at bonfire.

Standing in front of the Bonfire.

If you look at this years and last years pictures they look almost exactly a like.

The Start of the Parade

Awkward moment when one of the floats breaks down. Embarrassing for Camber of Commerce

Giant Bear (one of my favorite things about homecoming)

My Homecoming day has ended, mostly because I am not going to the game and I have three test to study for. It was a nice break in my day.

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Posted by on November 3, 2012 in Uncategorized


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Words to Live By

So, I have been listening to a lot of Mumford and Sons because of their new album that came out a month ago or maybe even more then a month ago entitled Babel. As most people know anything that is refer to as Mumford and Sons is words to live by. Importantly because I feel like they have a message that is geared towards life.

Mumford and Sons

Top List of Mumford and Sons song that I love:

1. Roll Away Your Stone 

Roll away your stone, I’ll roll away mine
Together we can see what we will find
Don’t leave me alone at this time,
For I am afraid of what I will discover inside

2. Sign No More 

Love that will not betray you, 
dismay or enslave you, 
It will set you free 
Be more like the man 
you were made to be. 
There is a design, 
An alignment to cry, 
At my heart you see, 
The beauty of love 
as it was made to be

3. After the Storm 

And there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

And now I cling to what I knew
I saw exactly what was true
But oh no more.
That’s why I hold,
That’s why I hold with all I have.
That’s why I hold.

4. White Blank Page 

Can you lie next to her 
and give her your heart, your heart?
As well as your body
And can you lie next to her 
and confess your love, your love?
As well as your folly
And can you kneel before this king 
and say “I’m clean”, “I’m Clean”?

Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life
oh lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life

I think that everyone should listen to this song before they get married/ commit to a relationship with someone. It is so wonderfully written. It speaks so much truth.

5. The Cave

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it’s meant to be

And I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

7. Not with Haste 

Though I may speak some tongue of old
Or even spit out some holy word
I have no strength from which to speak
When you sit me down, and see I’m weak

We will run and scream
You will dance with me
They’ll fulfill our dreams and we’ll be free

8. Lover of the Light 

And in the middle of the night, I may watch you go
There’ll be no value in the strength of walls that I have grown
There’ll be no comfort in the shade of the shadows thrown
You may not trust the promises of the change I’ll show
But I’ll be yours if you’ll be mine

So love the one you hold
And I will be your gold
To have and to hold
A lover of the light

So love the one you hold
And I will be your gold
To have and to hold
A lover of the light

9. Babel

I should have known I was weaker from the start.
You’ll build your walls and I’ll play my bloody part.
To tear, tear them down.
Well I’m gonna tear, tear them down.
Know my weakness, know my voice.
I believe in grace and choice.
I know that perhaps my heart is farce but I know that I’ll be born without
A mask

10. Holland Road

So I was lost, go count the cost,
Before you go to the holland road,
With your heart like a stone you spared no time in lashing out,
And I knew your pain and the effect of my shame, but you cut me down, you cut me down,

And I will not tell the thoughts of hell
That carried me home from the Holland road
With my heart like a stone and I put up no fight
To your callous mind, and from your corner you rose to cut me down, you cut me down

I believe that Mumford and Sons paint an interesting view of what love is and what it means to live out love in everyday life. Not all there songs around about love and relationships but about life in general, one that is close to God and faith.

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Posted by on November 2, 2012 in Uncategorized


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